Its December 1st. Jaret would be due in a couple weeks, which means he would've probably been here by now. I keep telling myself that if i can make it through December I'll be ok. Well, its December, we'll see how I do. Seeing my sister doesn't help. I just found out she's pregnant. I'm happy for her, i really am. Its hard to see her though, especially right now. I know the pain gets better, I feel on days that it has. Still there though. There are still days like today where the tears still come quite a bit.
A couple years ago I heard Rick Warren say something that stuck to me. He said that if you ask a person what life means to them, it really gives you a window into that person. I couldn't agree more. I've taken that with me ever since and really thought about it, asking people what life is to them. A few months ago I would've said life is an adventure. Definitely never a dull moment in my life. What has life been to me the last few months? Life is fragile.
